Esmeralda … my new favorite Disney Princess Heroine

For as long as I can remember Belle, from Beauty and the Beast has been my favorite Disney “Princess” and as I continue in this post please do not think that my love for her has diminished because it hasn’t at all. I have just come to the realization that I love Esmeralda from the Hunchback of Notre Dame more. I remember loving the Hunchback of Notre Dame when I was a little girl. I also remembering it being very controversial because of how sickening Frollo was. A lot of people were upset with the film, including some of my relatives because he was very open with his lust. I think this is maybe why Esmeralda has not been as popular/ inducted into the Disney “Princess World” as I think she should be. I have just rewatched the Hunchback of Notre Dame and I feel like the movie is brilliant. It teaches so many important lessons in a realistic way … well as realistic as Disney can. It brings up issues like lust, prejudice, emotional abuse, accepting others who are different, having a positive self-image, showing kindness, letting God be a part of your life … I could go on. Seriously, I could just go on and on about the brilliant messages taught in this movie. But I think the best part of the movie is Esmeralda.
Esmeralda is a strong, confident woman. She has a fantastic self image, she is kind, she is witty, she can fight back, she is willing to stand up for what is right, she turns to God in her despair, and she treats everyone as an equal. She is smart. And it is clear that people love her. Frollo is burning up Paris to get her and still people will not turn her in. She is respected. She also thinks of others and not just herself. The woman has every quality of a strong woman. I also love her because she still needs help. She can’t do everything alone. She needs people. I don’t know … I just love her.
I also love her relationship with Quasi and Pheobus. Esmeralda and Phoebus are so great together. I love their witty banter. I love that her strength turns Phoebus on. And I love his goodness. I love that they are two individuals that come together rather than it being a thing where they just aren’t complete until they are together. It’s like their completeness makes something fantastic. IF that even makes sense. And I feel like Esmeralda sincerely thinks of Quasi as a good friend. That may suck for Quasi but she is there for him. She really is. And I like that Pheobus and Quasi clearly become friends at the end too. Phoebus is also so cool when it comes to the Quasi situation … he can tell the boy loves her and he never rubs it in Quasi’s face that he has the girl.
One of my favorite scenes in the movie is when Quasi has saved Esmeralda from the flames and he is holding her on the cathedral roof and he yells sanctuary. It literally brings me to tears. Maybe because it shows that the innocent and the good need sanctuary. We all do. Sometimes we need to get away from the world and just be in a place dedicated to God. Not only that but it is such a symbol of God being a protection.

I also love the song “Out There” that is sung from Quasimodo. How he sees the world … I think we forget do often to see how beautiful the world is. I know this whole post is so random and scattered but I just have so many thoughts running through my brain. I love the Hunchback of Notre Dame so much. And I like that we get to see Frollo for the evil guy that he is. All of the other Disney villains are so frequently “dumbed” down … in a melodramatic way. Frollo is just legitimately horrible. He is racist, abusive, murderous and lustful and horrible. And I think it is good know those things are in the world. Monsters exist in the form of humans but so do angels. I just love the movie so much. And Esmeralda is my hero!

Valentines Day and TVD

Okay this post is just going to be a quick response to the episode tonight. I may do a more detailed thing later.
Love the line where Damon says that his skin is flawless. I love that Elena realized she is okay without the cure. It’s about fetching time. I don’t fully understand why Caroline wouldn’t go with Tyler except that maybe she felt she could keep Klaus around so he’s not hunting her man. I love love love that Katherine finally showed up. It is interesting to think that she’d want the cure … unless she wants it to cure Klaus. But maybe she does want it for herself. Weird. I also don’t believe Jeremy is dead. He has the ring. Bonnie was again awesome. She’s just pleasing me more and more. I’m irritated Stefan didn’t tell Damon that Elena doesn’t want the cure. I think this is because Stefan planned on giving it to her anyway. I believe Stefan would force the cure on Elena. Which is so obnoxious. I wish Elena would be more … I don’t know. I just wish she would give more to Damon than she does. But whatevs. Over all, this was a great episode and I really want to re-watch it. Oh I also loved that Jeremy pulled Bonnie out of her trance with her Grams. Okay I’m good.

Damon’s Choice

Once again note that this entry will have spoilers.
I should probably be more like Renbeth and organize my thoughts better but I need to react to the latest episode and therefore I am just going to react.

First off, let me state that this episode left me unsatisfied. I wanted the curse thing to have just been taken care of. As I have said before I am not a fan of this “cure.” Although, I do think it poses an interesting dilemma to the characters. Because it is the most on my mind, I will start with Damon and Elena first.
Okay, here’s the thing. Damon is a good vampire … no he is great one. He rocks at the whole kicking trash/protecting/ drinking blood, etc. And although I don’t think Damon always likes who he is … he has accepted who he is. Stefan loathes himself and lies to everyone else (including himself) about who he is. Stefan doesn’t want to accept what he is. I wasn’t surprised at all that Damon would not want to be human. When Elena first addresses the idea to him at the start of the episode … you can see it in his face. He doesn’t see him as human as being a real thing. He wouldn’t be Damon as a human. It would be like finding a cure for freckles and me taking it and not having freckles. That would be messed up. Okay, it isn’t exactly like that but you get my point. I also see where Elena is coming from. And I don’t think she is trying to reject Damon for who he is. I think she legitimately wants to grow old with him. But the problem is Damon doesn’t see it. I don’t see it. Don’t get me wrong. I want Damon and Elena to be with each other more than any other couple on the show … but I see them as vampires not humans. I think Damon does want Elena to choose to be a vampire … just like Elena wants Damon to be human. It made me sad when Damon made reference to not being Stefan. Here’s the thing. I don’t think Elena would be happy with Stefan in human form either. Stefan sucks either way. Elena sees this happy ending dream world where she and Damon get married, have kids, grow old and live human lives. But how can she seriously think that is an option? She’s the doppleganger. As she realized in the third season … all of the stuff that happened to her wasn’t because of the Salvatores. Okay, yes, things happened to her because of them but she was yanked into the supernatural world the day she was born. And if both she and Damon are human … heck I’d give them maybe three years. All of their friends are vampires, witches, werewolves. Not to mention they will be releasing the evil Silas. Without the supernatural she’s a dead woman. She can’t escape the supernatural world. But she can be a part of it. She can be strong, take care of herself as a vampire and be with Damon. I don’t think Damon was awful for turning down the “let’s be human together.” I think he’s a vampire and he knows it. I still think Damon and Elena can work … should work. Because I don’t think Elena can really be human again either. I certainly don’t want her to be so I get why Damon doesn’t want her to be either. And it has nothing to do with the dumb make believe sire bond. It has to do with who he is.
Shane. He just became so lame to me in this episode. He’s just a stupid guy like the preacher person. He’s a puppet in Silas’ plan. That’s so boring to me. I don’t know. I wanted him to be smarter. And can I just say that I called the whole “sacrifice Jeremy” right at the beginning of the episode. I was like, “really?” OF course, they have now conveniently brought in another hunter so that Jeremy doesn’t have to die and they can still release Silas. I’m not sure I love that. I wish they had made higher stakes. Release Silas a different way without meaning to.
I do still like Bonnie. Yes, she feels like she is under Shane’s control but I don’t think she is. What I mean is I think she has more control of herself than she realizes. And this could be a great chance for her to prove that. I did kind of enjoy the beginning scene with her and Jeremy as she is “forced” to study him shirtless. Ha ha.
I hate to admit it but Rebekah made some solid points. Elena isn’t innocent. And Rebekah hasn’t done anything that someone else in the gang would not do for the people they love. Heck, Elena staked Rebekah when she felt it was the only way to save her loved ones. It’s one of those, “We really aren’t that different” things. Don’t get me wrong. I like Elena way more than Rebekah. Rebekah is pouty and has tantrums but she has had legitimate reason to not adore Elena. Rebekah liked Stefan. He chose Elena. Elena pretends to be her friend and then literally stabs her in the back (or was it front), Elena has been responsible for the death of two of her family members, Klaus has picked Elena and his hybrids over Rebekah. It would be weird for Rebekah to like Elena. And it makes sense that Elena doesn’t like Rebekah. Some girls are just not meant to be BFF. I don’t love the Elena, Stefan and Rebekah being friends/working together. Gag. I just want Rebekah and Stefan to be all human with each other and for Elena to be like, “I’m cool with who I am. Damon, let’s make out and be a gorgeous vampire couple that kicks butt.” Whatever. I did love Rebekah’s response to Damon asking why he was there and her saying he had a nice behind. Ha. Great moment.
Klaus and Caroline. One, Tyler should have known better. The goose egg. But it was amazing the amount of pride he had to discard to save Caroline. I mean to just leave the woman he loves dying with the man he hates more than anything in life … that’s humility and love. Now, every now and then I have enjoyed some moments with Caroline and Klaus but I am actually pretty furious with Klaus. I mean he purposely bit the woman he “loves” to get back at Tyler. I loved that Caroline reminded Klaus about Jenna’s death. Thank you! I needed that reminder. Klaus is plain awful. He does just do things to be a dick and I don’t feel sorry for him. Caroline should not forgive him for what he did in this episode. Seriously, I will be so mad at her if she does. I am all for forgiveness but Klaus does not deserve Caroline’s forgiveness. He deserves to have Tyler rip him to shreds. And I hope people don’t find his actions romantic. He’s sick. And if Caroline and Klaus ever were in a relationship that would be the most abusive, horrible relationship ever. He’s bitten her twice and saved her. That isn’t heroic. If a guy tried to drown his girl friend twice and then give her cpr to revive her … sick. Or if a guy poisoned his girl friend and gave her the anecdote … sick.
Now, who is the mysterious guy or girl on the island. Now, I’d like it be Alaric, magically returned to never leave the show again. I don’t see that happening. Ha. Maybe it will be Matt showing off some new mad skills he has suddenly developed. A part of me wondered if Anna was there for Jeremy. Of course, they already had major closure so that probably isn’t it. I guess it could be an entirely new character. I would kind of love it to be Liz. Just cause everyone would be like, “What?!” (ha ha this is more of a joke). Now, Elijah would be awesome! I am all for that.
Okay, I need to go to bed. I have to get up super early tomorrow.
Oh but one more thing. Damon totally cares about Bonnie. He would never let anything happen to her. Damon cares about all of them. Okay, I’m done now. I can’t wait to read Renbeth’s post and hear Mitzi’s thoughts. Sorry if mine really were all over the place and doesn’t make sense. Thinking out loud on paper. 🙂

Good Choices TVD characters …

The following post will contain spoilers from the most recent episode so if you haven’t watched it yet … don’t continue reading. I am just so happy with the last episode that I must make commentary on the whole thing.

Okay I have so many thoughts and I’m just gonna go for it.
One, I am so happy with the Stefan and Rebekah relationship. I’d be fine if that just keeps happening and developing. Rebekah suits Stefan. I love that Stefan didn’t stake her (well …have Matt stake her) Rebekah is staked far too often. I also like the scenes with them doing their 80’s dance thing. Rebekah has wanted to go to a dance since the beginning. She wants to be human. This has been clear ever since she showed up … getting involved with every high school activity and Miss Mystic Falls, etc. Rebekah has always tried to fit in. And her dysfunctional family has always stopped that from happening. Rebekah has had good reason not to trust Stefan. And I still don’t think she should. I don’t think anyone should. Of course, this is because I hate Stefan. The point is … I liked how most of their time at the dance did not include talk of Elena. Yes, she was mentioned but most of the conversation was geared around other things like Lexi and trying to figure out what they both really want. Here is the thing. I think Stefan not having Elena to make him “human” is so healthy for Stefan. He is having to come to grips with who he is. Okay I’m not sure he’ll really do this but not being with her gives him the potential. The truth is I think Stefan benefits just as much as Elena does by them not being together. As I said before Rebekah suits Stefan. They see each other more realistically and they are more the same in character too.
I love it when we watch Matt and Jeremy playing their video games and saying they are training. IT makes them teenage boys again. And then Kol is playing it later. I don’t know for some reason it just amused me.
I also love that they have a high school dance going on almost one out of every three episodes. Ha ha. Can I make a comment here? Where the crap is Caroline and Tyler? They have just kind of disappeared?
I think it is interesting having both of Bonnie’s parents suddenly trying to get back into her life when they both deserted her for most of her childhood. Now they care? Now they come in and try to tell her what to do? I basically loved that Bonnie was like “Screw you!” I don’t love that Shane seems to have control over her but I do feel like she is starting to be less pathetic. I was so pleased with her ability to trap Klaus when so often it is Klaus trapping Bonnie into doing things she doesn’t want to do. It was nice pay back and I would feel complete joy if Bonnie was the one to get rid of Klaus (I don’t mean death cause that would kill all the other vampires I love but you know she should have him go away and he can be on his own originals show). Bonnie is constantly getting walked over which is one of the reasons I’m not a fan. I also feel like Bonnie is starting to at least accept Damon. I also loved her line “I don’t belong to the spirits anymore. I belong to myself.”
Okay one of my all time favorite parts of the episode was the Damon and Klaus conversation. Allow me to remind …
Damon and Klaus are discussing how Damon has done horrible thing.

Klaus:Ah yes, for the love of Elena. How is it that she manages to overlook every horrific thing you’ve ever done. Is it willful ignorance or perhaps something more pathological?
Damon: Some people are just more capable of forgiveness than others. I bet you score a negative five hundred in that realm.
Klaus: Come on, there must be a secret. It can’t just be the sire bond. What is it? Compulsion? Manipulation? What is it you say to her?
Damon: I think this has something to with a certain blond vampire. I think you murdered Carol Lockwood and I think you’re worried Caroline will never forgive you.
Klaus: You’ve done worse.
Damon: Debatable. See I don’t mind being the bad guy. Because someone needs to fill that role and get things done. You do bad things for no reason. You do them to be a dick.
Klaus: Debatable.
Damon: If you’re gonna be bad, be bad with purpose. Otherwise, you’re just not worth forgiving.

I mean how fetching great is this? One, you see Klaus showing his weakness for Caroline. Two, you see Damon explaining the difference between the two of them. Damon knows he does jerky things but he flat out states he has a reason. Klaus is just a maniac. I also love that Klaus again looks to Damon to solve his problem (everyone always goes to Damon). I have a strong belief that Klaus has this bizarre respect for Damon. Damon gets things done. I don’t know how else to express how happy I am about this conversation. Damon is just so much more awesome than all the other guys on this show. The only one I would have ever said equaled him in awesomeness is Alaric. I also found the later conversation with Klaus interesting as well. Klaus talking about how Stefan and Elena are meant to be. And he tries to make Damon feel bad about not resisting the compulsion. And how nice and convenient that the water Stefan brought Damon happened to be tap water. 🙂
I liked Elena and Jeremy fighting off Kol together. And I’m glad they killed Kol. It was a decision the two of them made without any outside force and they followed through without anyone else’s help. Which was just nice for the Gilberts. No one else dictated what they should do, how to do it, etc. (Side note: I also loved Elena stepping out of the stake.)
Klaus’ tissy fit about Kol dying … he stakes his siblings for kicks and giggles. I do not get his sense of family. I also thought his reasonings for wanting to find the cure was fascinating. Him claiming he didn’t want the hybrids he wanted to destroy it. I have a hard time fully believing this. Because why not just leave it buried instead of finding it? I guess he doesn’t want a chance for anyone else to find it before him. I am surprised Rebekah responded so well to finding out Kol had been killed. Kol was obnoxious … he served his purpose. He warned them about Silas (which is foreboding) and he made it possible for Jeremy to get the map without killing a ton of innocent people. And now he is out of the way. Lovely. I must admit I am curious for next week.
Damon rubbing the Rebekah thing in Stefan’s face. Interesting. A little petty. But you know what I think he has a right to shove it in Stefan’s face that Stefan does horrible things when he is hurt too. Here is another difference between the two though. Damon and Rebekah both slept together for the sake of it. (which isn’t great) but Stefan knows there is an emotional attachment there. I was also pleased when Damon punched Stefan when he said the sire bond comment.
Okay, I should be done now. Just I love my show so much. I cannot express how happy it makes me. And I’m so excited to read Renbeth’s post about it.


So, today on my lovely walk around a lake I was listening to music and a couple songs came on (I had it on shuffle) and they made me think of people in my life and it got me thinking about what songs make me think of what people. Now some people (such as loved ones, boys I’ve liked, etc. have more than one song– some people have dozens) but I thought I would write down like a main song that makes me think of certain people. This post could be very boring for other people but I decided it would be fun for me. And who knows you may have a song that makes me think of you. (I have decided to put a musical artist with a couple people-mainly family- that makes me think of you just overall- I will put these in parenthesis)

Me: Here With Me- Dido (Avril Lavigne)
Daddyboy- Everything I Do- Bryan Adams (Alabama)
Mom- Unexpected Song (Carpenters)
Renbeth: It’s All Coming Back to Me Now- Celion Dion (Tori Amos)
Juan: Little Black Back Pack- Stroke 9 (Red Hot Chili Peppers and Radiohead)
Best Friend: Pirates Gospel- Alele Diane (Ingrid Michaelson)
Little Ash: Cry- Faith Hill
Seanzie: Somebody Like You- Keith Urban
Louie: Amazing Grace
Nan J/Chelsea: Everywhere- Michelle Branch (Michelle Branch and Josh Groban)
Chelle Belle: Would You Go With Me- Josh Turner
Kesara and Beth: I Refuse- Sense Field
Punk- Smile- Uncle Kracker
Curt- Forever- Uncle Jesse and the Rippers
Elder Spears- On Fire- Switchfoot
Gemma- To Make You Feel My Love- Adele
Cole- Need to Be Next to You- Leigh Nash
Devin- In the End- Linkin Park

Next I want to put a couple combos . . .

Parents: Forever’s As Far As I’ll Go- Alabama
Siblings: A Whole New World and I Just Can’t Wait to be King- Disney
Juan and Little Ash: Girlfriend- Avril Lavigne
Gemma and Miller: Love Story- Taylor Swift

Okay that’s all for the moment. I am sure there are more. And as I said before there is usually more than one song with people. Those were just the main ones to come to mind.

The Highway Man vs Romeo and Juliet

So, I was listening to The Highwayman by Loreena McKennitt (poem by Alfred Noyes) and I was just thinking about how beautiful the poem is. I have loved it since I was a little girl. My Daddyboy would read it to me from the Childrens Verse of Poems books we had. This poem is dreadfully tragic but I feel it shows true love.
Some would argue that Romeo and Juliet is the most tragically romantic story but I disagree. There is nothing romantic about Romeo and Juliet. Allow me to go on a little rant. I hate Romeo and Juliet. Two high schoolers fall in lust (yes, lust. They met each other once, with no real conversation and they were all gaga over each other). Then they kill themselves when they think the other is dead. Killing yourself because the person you love is “dead” is ridiculous. And the person who is “dead” would never want the other person to do such a thing. They would want you to live out your life. Is it sad two kids ended up dead because two families were fighting? Sure. But it isn’t romantic. And don’t get me wrong. I think highschoolers can fall in love . . . but I think high school love is a very fickle thing and it lasting is rare. I can’t tell you how crazy it makes me when students tell me they are getting married right after high school or during high school. People change so much out of high school. Give yourself a chance to find out who you are. Love and marriage is hard work. Okay I’m gonna stop now on this one because I could go on and on forever about it. Ha ha.
Back to my discussion. The Highway man is about two adults who have been in love for some time. She shoots herself to warn him (to save his life). He becomes a mad man and rides into death to avenge her. They don’t kill themselves. They risk death to save/ defend the person they love. That to me is love. Selflessness. It isn’t about them feeling sad that someone they met like two days ago died. Anyway, I love the Highwayman. I kind of want to write a play for it. Hmmmm . . . maybe I should write a play for it. I am now intrigued. : )


Tomorrow I will be twenty-seven. I’m not going to lie … I’m not at all where I thought I would be at 27. But I feel really good about who I am over all. Not saying there aren’t things I wouldn’t want to change about me and my life but the truth is I like who I am and I like what I have accomplished in my life. I’ll admit I have felt a bit bummed this last weekend (I’m blaming some of this on it being my time of the month) because I am turning 27 (which is my favorite number) and I feel like my birthday will just be pretty much like any other day. I guess I just wanted it to be memorable and beyond great. I know it will be lovely … I’ll be spending the evening with my family. So that is nice. It’s too just bad that Adam Brody won’t walk into my classroom and kiss me. That would also be nice … memorable and beyond great. Ha ha. I have a hope that this year of me being 27 will be one of the best years of my life. I should probably find a candle to blow out.

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